A Timely Post: Self-criticism & Playing to Lose
Hey guys! How's everyone doing on this T8 evening. It's not just weather that's throwing a sh*tstorm around nowadays, it's people as well. Like I've always been honest and open with you guys, this time will be no different. Trust me, I'm no celebrity, but more like those blurry people that appears in the background. And that's why since young, I've never really learnt how to deal with negative comments properly, other than either lashing out or burying it deep down, instead of making peace with myself.
Wearing: Top from Mongkok, jeggings from American Eagle Outfitters, clogs from Zara and sunnies from Taiwan
I'm not the most confident girl, and throughout my teenage years, or even as young as I could remember, I was struggling to deal with people's fat comments and/or self-criticism. But that's not the topic I want to elaborate on today. It's more like when people put you down for something that you KNOW you're good at. Or at least it's something you spent a lot of time and effort on.I'm all about rewards and reaping what you sow, educated guesses and minimal-to-none risks. Because I don't like to lose. I use to be that person who'd rather sit out than play to lose. But suddenly, nothing is sure when you put yourself out there to be judged.But I suppose we all have to grow up somehow and accepting what you can't change, especially in others, that may be the hardest part. It's what I can't change in how others judge me and my work. But that really shouldn't take away how I feel about myself and my work. Yes, I'm all for constructive criticism, but other than that, it's time I start giving zero sh*ts about non-educated comments in general. Instead of seeking for approval and praise from others, why not start approving your own self first? (Blah blah blah, learn to love yourself, that kind of cliche stuff. But yes, soon you'll have to admit life is just annoyingly full of sad but true cliches like love makes the world go round.)And that extends to my bigger point and outwards. Apart from loving/approving yourself and treating yourself well, you should also not be a dick. Just, don't. Be kind to others, because a) you never know when they'll be the boss of you, and b) karma, duh.
And so I'm going to stop typing before I start to sound like a zen pinterest quote board (yes shin, if you're reading this, I'm starting to sound like you *laughs*). I'm just going to walk away with my head high and keep improving. #hatersgonnahatemateP.S. Read more! In general! Who actually read this whole thing instead of just scrolling through everything like it's Instagram?!
Till next time,xx
